Thursday, April 4, 2013

Feeling Small in a Big World

Growing up, I always felt big. TOO big.
First off, I hit my growth spurt early. Secondly, I became worried about matters concerning my weight at an early age, earlier than most little girls. At the time, though, it didn't seem like something that was mine or anyone's fault, it was just the way I was. I was big. And I didn't like it.
As I grew up a bit and entered my pre-teen years, I watched my mom try diet after diet and realized that maybe being big wasn't completely unavoidable as part of my identity as I thought it was all through my childhood.
I've struggled with weight loss ever since, and the only times I have ever succeeded was when I ate practically nothing... and obviously that method was hard to uphold.
So my size, along with other things, made my life a struggle for many years.

Well I've learned a lot in the past couple years, and I've realized I'm not that big at all. I'm in the the tiny 2% of the world that is LDS. I'm a girl, and a youth; that leaves us .5%. I also have green eyes. .0001%. With every little thing, the percentage gets smaller, all the way down to me. Precisely .00000000014132278% of the world's population. And suddenly, I feel extremely small.

And that's why it's so amazing what a single person can do.
Just a miniscule .00000000014132278% of the world
can change the world.

You may feel big, or your may feel small, but you are important.

So I'd like to end this post with my favorite scripture:
"Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things." Alma 26:12

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