Song Obsessions: February & March 2016

I think I talk to much

I need to listen, baby

I need to listen good

I think I try too hard

How I look, what I do, what I'm saying

I spent too much time explaining myself

~Cry Baby by The Neighbourhood~

All this driving is driving me crazy

And all this moving is proving to get the best of me

And I've been trying to hide it, but lately

Every time I think I'm better, picking my head up

Getting nowhere

~Ease by Troye Sivan~

Do I look lonely?
I see the shadows on my face
People have told me I don't look the same

~Death of a Bachelor by Panic! at the Disco~

I can't tell you why
Because my brain can't equate it
Tell me your lies
Because I just can't face it

~It's You by Zayn~

Feel like a brand new person
(But you make the same old mistakes)
I don't care, I'm in love
(Stop before it's too late)

~New Person, Same Old Mistakes by Tame Impala~

You built a city
All in your head
You know you're not losing your mind
What's left you make something of it

~Wildflower by Beach House~

Songs That Got Me Through 2015

I was super M.I.A. last year on this blog because honestly I've been focusing a lot more on journaling. I don't think anyone really reads this anyway, so it's cool. But I've been jamming a ton lately and if your music taste is anything like mine you might like this post. These songs meant a lot to me in 2015 and I hope you enjoy.

Shadows fill my mind up

Zeros tell me my time's up

I lost count so long ago

Maybe my heart's numb

Don't hold my hands accountable

They're young and they're dumb

Drive through the time zones

Escape out of my mind's own hold

I lost you not long ago

Heaven knows I'm miserable

Hell takes all the credit though

Til the day is done

~The Emotion by BORNS~

I used to recognize myself

It's funny how reflections change

When we're becoming something else

I think it's time to walk away

So come on let it go

Just let it be

Why don't you be you

And I'll be me

~Let It Go by James Bay~

After some time, I know I would go blind

But seeing only binds the vision to the eye

I'd lose my voice, I know

But I've nothing left to say

It is nothing left to pray

No echo in this place

~Agoraphobia by Deerhunter~

I put the radio on, hold you tight in my mind

Isn't it strange that you're not here with me

But I know the light's on in the television

Trying to transmit, can you hear me?

~Terrence Loves You by Lana Del Rey~

Think I just remembered something

I think I left the faucet running

Now my words are filling up the tub

Darling, you're just soaking in it

But I know you'll get out the minute

You notice all your fingers pruning up

~Soap by Melanie Martinez~

You say you want the truth, but you can't take it

So I give you lies.

You say you want the best, but you destroy it

So I keep it inside.

~There I Said It by Adam Lambert~

Honorable Mentions:

~Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High by Arctic Monkeys

~Cecilia and the Satellite by Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness
~Helicopter by Deerhunter
~As the World Falls Down by David Bowie
~Shake Me Down by Cage the Elephant

b o w i e

I was listening to Teenage Wildlife today. By the man himself, David Bowie, of course. I miss him so much. And I don't post very often on this blog anymore, but I read a YouTube comment on Teenage Wildlife that really struck me. Madeline Gass shared, "Rest In Peace David Bowie. Another burst of colour robbed from our ever-greying world. A virtuosic legend who seemed invincible, but whose works in music, film, fashion, and art are immortal."
When he died, that is truly how I felt. I can't count how many times I've cried. I felt as if something amazing had been robbed from the world, and I still feel that way to some degree, but I realize that he is still very much with us. His works are so immortal that we started to believe he was immortal, too, and that's why his death came as such a shock, I think.
I love Bowie. I love his courage and innovative nature. I love that he made music all the way up until the end of his life. It wasn't about the money, or the fame. It was about making art, making a statement, and changing the world. That is the best way to live. I will always remember Bowie, and I am disappointed that I will never be able to personally thank him for the service he has done for me and countless others. Rest in Peace, Starman. I love you.